stolen spotlight

have you ever felt like there's no place for you in the spotlight? when everything is just not for you? I have been there, and that's my bad. sorry for not being that attractive.


but you know what? there's nothing bad for being in the shadow. for me, that means a million times better place to do whatever I want, reach my dreams, and find my own way.





well, I'm just saying..

should I?

kadang itu yaaa.. saya suka bingung mau ngobrol sama orang atau ndak. apalagi kalo orang yang pingin saya ajak ngobrol itu, orang yang saya rasa pernah saya sakiti. rasa bersalahnya itu yang bikin ngerasa nggak enak banget. mau ngobrol apa ya??


so here I am, just staring at your name, thinking a million times hoping you'll start that chatting bar. or just being offline. cheerio!!

kiddo

See that little cute kid in the picture? That's me. She smiled like there's nothing to worried about. Sometimes, I wish I could back to that time. When I took my time easily, imagined almost about everything, just being so free.

I am 21 years old now, and things are not the same anymore. There are consequences in everything I do, logical considerations, job, work, friends, love, education, future... Those are things I cannot avoid. No one could. But still, it's a choice. A little kid with a big girl's stuffs, or a big girl with a kid's wisdom within?

1 a.m.

Saya menulis postingan ini di jam 1 pagi.

Jam 1 pagi buat saya adalah jam yang paling penting dalam 24 jam karena kadang terpikir oleh saya bahwa apa yang saya lakukan di jam 1 pagi bakal berpengaruh sama hidup saya di jam-jam selanjutnya. Biasanya, kalau jam segini saya belum tidur, jam 1 siang besok saya bakal ngantuk (padahal besok ada kuliah tekno).

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